I have had, or should I say am having, the absolute best time teaching my Careers Class at the Owasso Mid-High. The principal offered to extend my contract back in March and without hesitation, I accepted! After teaching a lesson on balancing life and career, I quickly realized that there is no way I can possibly pull this off. I desire to be a wife, mommy, teacher and coach and I have a level of excellence that I am expected to perform at on all of these "life tasks". Talk about stretching myself too thin.... When school starts in August, I'll be leaving my house at 6:30 am (Brady still sleeping) go to practice, school all day, practice again and get home around 9 pm (Brady in bed for the night). Keep in mind I will be nine months pregnant. There is absolutely no time for me to be a wife and mom and I refuse to put my family on the backburner for my own selfish ambitions or successes. As a result, I have decided not to accept my contract extention after all. I will continue to coach so that I will still have "my thing" but most of my energies will be focused on Bobby, Brady and baby #2 (who will have a name on May 13th at about 3:45 when we find out the sex).
I am very excited to be able to be a stay at home mom but to be 100% honest, I am a little nervous! I am afraid that I may feel guilty that I am not out working to help provide for my family. My mom didn't stay home with us when we were young (because she was a single mother) so as much as I hear it is the best thing for my children, I have no personal experience. Don't get me wrong, I still rush out of school to get pick up Brady so that I can get as much playtime in as possible before bedtime, it's just that all I know is work work work, pay the babysitter. I think the dynamic with two children will be completely different in that I will be insanely busy and it will be so nice to be able to have a clean house and a hot meal on most nights. Our house is usually clean on Saturday morning and then by the afternoon it is a wreck again and the cycle continues on a weekly basis. Maybe I'll really start getting into cooking and saving coupons? HA! We'll see..... Any stay at home moms, feel free to give me some sanity advice :)
Thursday, April 30, 2009
I apologize for being MIA the past couple of months! To completely honest, I forgot my password and didn't have the 3 minutes it took me to go through the process of changing it! April has been the absolute most insane month of my life! I had Colorguard auditions, parent meetings, a ton of projects going on at school, design meetings and I finished teaching English 1 at night school. Next week is kind of a crazy week putting a wrap on everything but I finally see light at the end of the tunnel. There are only 17 more days of school left after today (seeing that we don't close our doors due to the swine flu), and then SUMMERTIME baby!!! Bobby is still in the middle of his baseball season so we'll still have a couple games to go to every week and various tournaments on the weekend. Brady and I love love LOVE going to the baseball games!!! Brady calls it mmmba (baseball) and carries one around EVERYWHERE he goes! It makes me a little nervous in the house since he is turning into our very own Carlos Zambrano (Pitcher for the Cubs) so I may have to replace his real baseballs with some plastic ones. Anyhow, I am back and I PROMISE to do a better job of blogging! Especially since I have decided not to renew my teaching contract next year (more on this later)!